Being empathic is not always an easy trade. Being able to sense the emotions with my environment as well how people feel, holds a big responsibility. Not always am I tuned into the outside of my inside world. I have learned over the years with a lot of practice to hold the line and know which is mine. It demands a kind of detachment to be able to go through my day to day life. When it comes to those who I love and are in a relationship with, that’s a different story. Being so inner connected with them is enabling me to sense and even feel the emotions that are being stored. As well the situations or challenges they are connected with. Sometimes the knowing is difficult for others to accept or even to understand for that matter.
Yet when it comes to assist in healing or releasing stuck energy from within, I always known that this is part of me that can step up. It is like fine tuning of a radio station if you will. When it is required to be able to read the emotions and the challenge that comes with it, that is when I go within. It was necessary for me to learn to be more detached, because in the beginning of my lifetime it was all entwined. My inner world and the outer world where one so to speak as a child. Sensing and feeling the emotions of my family around me was not always easy. Even as a child I was asking what is wrong when I sensed the emotions of sorrow or pain in order to check when it wasn’t mine. The denial in the answers made it a challenge, to learn, which is mine and which isn’t part of my emotional world.
In later years it got a name, being high sensitive is one of them. Different wired as a lot of other people and also different biologic set up. That is the hard part because every type of energy which couldn’t be determined as my own experience, left a print in my physical system. Even sensing the emotional effect on the health of someone else was hard at times. It worked if the other one was open to accept what I could tell what the root of the problem was. That is the case if people came to me for answers and allowed me to step into their mental, physical and emotional system so to speak, my fine tuning. So during therapy, it is a major asset this ability to tune in. It requires a different approach, where the guard of detachment could be let down for the time being.
With my beloved it was not a manner of detaching because our inner connection was an open and loving one. It was a challenge at times because we not always are working through our emotional experiences the same way. We also had our own path to walk, working through our own issues to be healed and released. There were times this was even hard to do, yet love is a great teacher as well the key to be able to get detached when it was required. We chose each other for various reasons. That we are different and sometimes coming from the opposite direction thought us to find the inner balance over the years. Growing and learning, experiencing how deep the Love and connection was and still is. Even after crossing the line of this earthly lifetime.
I came to the understanding that my ability of sensing and feeling the emotions as well pain physically, was being stored within myself as well. Being confronted with physical challenges that require me to surrender to be dependent, I was pulled back in time so to speak. The way we are in the hands of others to assist in a very intimate way by taking care of our physical wellbeing is a huge challenge. We have to go past shame, we have to allow the touch and difference between the caretakers as well in how they are doing their work. It brought back the memories of how the last months have been for my love and the way he was able to handle this. It was more than just bringing back the memories. It also raised up from within my body, heart and mind as well the energetic imprint it had left within myself. The sorrow, the pain that had been lying dormant within me, was being triggered due to my own process in this present moment. There was a moment of huge purging that came with it, which was felt through my entire body energetically as well. As well this was a part of my own, I immediately knew this was a release and healing for my love as well by going through this massive and painful block of stuck energy.
It works both ways for him as well for me. I know that release of stuck energy I might hold which isn’t mine, first needs to be recognised. There is always some kind of trigger in the challenges I am facing, that opens up the stuck energy that lies deep within. We are still connected through our Heart and Love connection over the borders of this material world. I know for sure, my release and letting go, as well the awareness that came with it, also benefits his wellbeing and his journey at the other side of the veil. That’s when it dawned at me. Being an empath and assisting a healing process is an asset, a gift and a treasure. Grateful as well humbled at the same time to experience the depth of this internal experience I had.
So many people are going through this process of dependency, being physical disabled. The way you are being treated makes a world of difference if it will be a loving and healing experience. It can cause even more damage when there is indifference in the hands and actions. The way we are dealing with illness and disability is sometimes without respect or understanding. The emotions of shame or fear are adding up to the discomfort that already exists. You don’t have to be an empath to understand this. Every act coming from love will enable to go through these processes of allowing. Just the awareness of the one who is the assistance, will make the difference how this will be perceived. To me, it works like a sword, it cuts both ways. Be loving towards myself, is the key in the way I can exist in coexistence with my outer world.
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